After-Life

How I'm feeling...
A little annoyed actually... So i go to blogger.com about 2 days ago and i find out that i can't into my old blog, which is a little annoying, to be truthful. I was thinking of making a new blog anyway, but now that it's forced upon me, I'm a little overwhelmed. Is this what an after life feels like? If so, i hope i never re-incarnate, starting over is the worst curse i could ever imagine. gah.
Yeah... but i decided, since I've been given a second chance, metaphorically speaking anyway so i will re-introduce myself and start my story line.

I'm the one who sees... well just about everything. I know most of the rumors in school and most of the people too. The only thing is, that i don't ever EVER get what i want. There is always someone better, or smoother or cooler, etc. So i'm always the one who watches everyone and never gets to be the one being watched.

Sorry if you're getting a rather pessimistic view of me, but i'm not very optimistic at the moment, you see, the wallflower thing happened again. As many know, i love drama. Not the dramatic-ness drama where people cry and are queens and such, the one where you cry and are queens.. on stage. Well every year at my school, we have a talent show (as most do). This year there was a special dance and it is to a mixture of Queen songs. So me being excited me and all, i go to try outs optimistic and rady to dance. It's only me for the first 10 minutes (guy-wise) so i'm pretty psyched. Then the men start rolling in. The Casual one; he's really nice to me and i have no problem with him. Then comes The I-Couldn't-Give-A-Shit one. He REALLY pisses me off. Not only does he act like he doesn't care, but his acting is horrible, you can tell he's faking what he says and on top if it all he CAN'T dance, he can move, sure but he's so soild, it's like he has wires in his body... GAH! Ok. Then The Pot-Head goes in. i have no real problem with him other than that he can be as high as a kite and STILL get the part. He is the stereotypical "dream guy" that all girls fawn over and is already playing Link Larkin in the Hairspray dance. So we try out and everythings.. ok. So i go to check the list to see who makes it and who is not. First thing i see is the two people i DON'T want to get main parts... did. Pot-Head got the main guy, and I-Couldn't-gove-a-shit go the main bully. I swear it is really upsetting that 2 people who don't deserve it, get it. i'm Pot-head's understudy and Casual is ICGAS's understudy. But the chances of them not showing up to try outs is incredibly low. It was really typical and i can just see it when the play comes around that the same thing will happen, just like last year, they'll choose the popular over the talented. not saying that i'm nessisarily talented, but i'd like to think i have some talent and more than ICGAS at least.

Ah well, what should i expect from my life. This always happens so we'll see. What can i do?